A fairly late post, a short poem on Diwali.. :)

High up in the murky sky,
Lighting Crackers with joy,
While Kith and Kin enjoy,
Diwali is a night to be happy and gay,
Family is far away,
I am here, I so wonder Why,
Now What can I Say
It's just making me Cry!!!
But,our Culcom is a fay
Looking forward for tomorrow's celebs Yay !!!

My journey to get into an IIM.

                        

It makes me so happy to write this today sitting on my bed in  the hostel of IIM Tiruchirapalli.

Three years back I was an easy go engineering student who would bunk classes,who was asked to get out of the class.I was so reckless,never so worried about what’s going to happen with my future and my grades weren’t very imprressive .Of course that’s obvious.One day I have attended class by Jayesh and that’s when I gave a serious thought and felt that I should prepare for my MBA.I have started attending classes.My English improved a lot.I have learned a lot through the course of an year.Unfortunately my CAT didn’t work well.I was having second thoughts about giving CAT again and it freaked me out to join an IT company.(I hate coding and I thought IT job is about coding back then) But Jayesh insisted that I write CAT again.Luckily I got through Ericsson and  my joining date was in December,so I have joined at CL Tambaram for a crash course since I was idle.Thanks to my mom and my family for being supportive and sending me so far upon my wish.Mumma I love you for trusting me.

If you would ask me the best things that happened in my life it’s learning from Jayesh and joining at CL Tambaram.If it wasn’t for them I would have never been able to achieve this for they always believed in me and encouraged me.Writing this someday has been my dream and I am blessed that it came true.

I still remember the first few days at center,I had nothing to do,I would come to center everyday,bug Ajay sir,Kushal and Praveen sir too if he is at center.Thanks to Kushal and Ajay sir who taught me Math .I hated it my entire life.I only told them I want to get into a decent collge. Forget about dream,IIM was not even in my mind.I didn’t make it in my second attempt too.Everyone I know told me I’m being adamant and I should quit now and join some college.That’s when I have become more adamant for, these people gave me the dream of getting into a good B-School.But the day I got my CAT result this year I as on cloud nine.I literally screamed after giving a call to Ajay sir that day.That was moment of inexplicable happiness in my life .

Along with studies,every moment was memorable because of the people around.

Ajay sir you have taught me so much not just Math LR and English.The day I stepped into center I was a shy panicky girl but down the lane I have lost that fear of losing.You are a true Inspiration and You are the Best.

Praveen sir ,hadn’t been for your encouragement and boosting up in low times I would  not have been able to continue my journey so far( in the country of India )

Raja Raman Sir who taught me math and the only one who speaks  in Telugu with me,You are a Vedic guru who plays with numbers.

Santosh sir your English grammar was great and your Telugu too.

Kushal,You know I hate praising you right,but chalo ek baar.. You have been my best friend .You have seen my Whining,crying, happiness and having you as a friend is really my strength.(Please forget about that 12k now.. )

Ankur,Who doesn’t need a paper to solve math questions,who would laugh out loud and make everyone  around chuckle,I remember the times we sat and solved math together and I can never forget The Ratna Bhavan jokes .

Rajan yaar u have been the best motivator ,and a really good friend  of mine all the way.

Parul the only sweet girl who gave me company at the center  amongst all crazy guys.

Pravallika the only cute Telugu girl i knew at the center i never knew we would become such a good friends and you always supported me

Nats ..Do I have to say anything about you dude..Seriously u were the best example I would quote to anyone to show dedication.happy to have a friend like you..But mind you no compromise on our darling…

Avani the sweet cute girl whom I knew for the past few months but one of my best friends now.. I just love u ..Please don’t cry we are all there for you always.

Rajesh..Though I know you only for few months I m glad to meet a friend like you ,lively n cheerful.

Dharani I have known you late but thanks that I got to know you..yaar  I can never forget your football Intro with Ajay sir..So passionate you are.
Now how can I forget one and only JAY at the center.. Thoda sa serious,scary jay at the start has become a good friend..You are a true marketing guy.. ;)

And so finally Jayesh ,hadn’t  been for you  this journey would have never started.Thanks for being there to encourage me always.

You guys are really like a family to me.I love CL just because of you all.I wish all good things to happen In your lives.

I Wonder Why...NOW..!!!!

When i was studying in my engineering first year i wasn't even worried about getting a job,Since i have been in a boarding school from when I was 10 years old this was the first time when someone wouldn't wake me up at 5.That was the biggest boon for me back then.I somehow ended up  screwing up my grades in my first year.Then realized (not much though,that i'm lagging).I took a seat in mechanical,then my parents moved me to computer sciences and because of disastrous experiences with computers subjects(My first internal marks were sent to my home,My mom asked me is it a 7 on 10 or 50)I decided to opt for a branch transfer and took Electrical and Electronics despite disapproval from my parents.And yes I did little better and my grades improved.My 3rd year started and all of a sudden everyone is worried about getting a job.I was too..I somehow managed to get two offers by the end of my fourth year.I didn't want to go for IT.So opted for the other one.I didn't have many friends either at the work place.There was nothing to like or dislike in the work I do.I get to hear from all my friends about how much they hate the work they do.I was never interested in Electrical ,infact not even engineering so I never took the pain of going behind something better(like EEE core job for EEE students like wise MECH and ECE).This is the case with many students.Many of them don't know why they are doing engineering so it doesn't matter if they study hard and do a major in Electrical and end up working in IT.(Thanks to outsourcing).I just wonder when people ask me didn't u study electrical why are you working in Software..Well,I don't have an answer.I should keep questioning myself from Why MPC(Maths,Physics,Chemistry..we were supposed to choose Math or Bio in our 11th,12th),Why engineering,Why whatsoever branch..There is no answer for any of these questions then how would i answer why work in IT when you have studied Electrical.Well I don't love my job,I don't hate it either..I would say it's just a way to live..Now many of them would want to do an MBA or go for MS because having that degree pays them better.So basically many of us don't have answers for so many Why's.Because we never had options,we never got to choose something we like in the name of "You don't know anything" said by many of the parent's.You wouldn't see many people who would pursue their career in art,commerce,economics etc..(I meant  less in comparision with the rest of the people who choose Engineering or Medicine).So in this regard I think we Indians have long way to go..It's due to their notion that studying in these two fields would get a job and secured career.I think it's time to change and think with a unbiased mind,follow their heart and not mind,do what they love and stop being someone that someone you love wants you to be,stop living upto some one's expectations and live their own life they want it to be.May be things can go wrong,Life isn't perfect ain't it?So a few wrong steps wouldn't leave you in lurch for ever..In fact hard times actually make you a better person.I don't think it isn't too late even now,so I would just follow my heart and do what i want in my life..This is something I have decided no matter how consequences would be I would just face and live my life the way I want it..I can't get more sick of life..22 years of it is enough!!!I wouldn't ever wonder ahead in my life why have I done that,I want to have answers for everything I do and every step i take from now on in my life..

I saved this thinking that i can end it on a happy note.But things don't work out as we plan them to be right? After all this is LIFE.

Ok here it goes,After spectacular debacle of CAT last year,I was determined i Would clear it and study from a top league B-School.One of the best moments in my life was when i checked the score card.Ya i forgot to mention that i turned off my phone so i can shut out myself from the rest of the world in case it goes bad,It was funny I couldn't wait to turn it on when i saw the result.Yay..Happy it was a good score.Still i managed to get calls from only IIM K,New IIM's,SP jain and IIT Kharagpur(best calls among the one's i have applied,missed applying for NITIE and MDI though) Deepest regret that i didn't listen to kushal when he told me to apply.

Now let me tell you that was yet another big day when i got shortlisted for spjain considering my profile is average.Went for the Interview,The Group Interview process seemed weird because that's the first time i got to know that there is something like that(Group Interview).So on the day of interview it was so messed up(must be..!!!) went to wrong center.somehow reached just on time.The topic for WAT was One situation is life when it was tricky and you found a simple solution..Seriously..!!! i was pondering if i was ever so ingenious in my life.Then i wrote down some incident from my school(I felt it was silly but couldn't think of anything else).Then i was called for the first GI-1.There were 7 people.2 Marketing,2 finance and 3 operations.It started with introduction.Tell about yourself and why Operations.I knew this was the single question that is nerve wrecking,i pulled my hair for few days to come up with a decent answer and on the day i was posed that question I barely managed to say what i prepared..It was a total different answer but decent.There was one girl who talked about quality management..God!! Asked me too..I heard little from my seniors at work about lean and sigma.Then came what is sigma,standard deviation,mode,median and mean.I was so smart i took an example from 1-11 numbers where median and mean is same.Okay again second try i managed to say it correct.So i waited till GI1 results were announced.Hurrah through..!!! Second round was very cool more about personal life questions,nothing right or wrong.

This is the best call i have for this year.I had really high hopes on this.Got to know that they were calling everyone who converted individually.Didn't like the idea though,but still waited long expecting a call.was wondering my eyes would pop out if i stare for some more time at my phone.Then there was a post on PG that all calls have been made for the converts.So wait again for the wait list !!!And today I looked at the screen, there is no chance i would convert at that wait list number.I was sad,dejected and devastated.But some how that smile crossed through my lips that at least iam not rejected..!!!Tried deriving lot's of theories to predict my loss,after all it's better than thinking that iam less than someone.It's ok.. now I will hope for the best in other results and do my best for the other interviews..It's not the end of the road,just a milestone.So I believe there is something wonderful is about to happen.!!!

This is one day when i lost the best chance to be a part of one of the best institutes.Nevertheless the journey was great.:)Thanks to the people who always guide me ,encourage me and stay by my side no matter what.

Corruption is rampant every where in the world.Over the years it has only rooted it's tentacles further deep.India too showed it's mettle by securing 94th place out of 176 countries in Transparency International's Corruption Perceptions Index.Since it's inception with 1948 jeep scandal it has only become worse down the lane in the subsequent years.1980-90s Bofors scandal,2002-2010 UP Foodgrain scam,2010 CWG scam,2010 2G spectrum scam,2012 Coal gate Scam,2012 Uttar Pradesh NRHM scam and the recent 2013 Chopper deal scam just proves how unscrupulous our politicians and bureaucrats are.Corruption is mostly seen in the implementation of subsidary schemes of the government. In Food grain Scam in UP ,food grains worth 350 billion meant to be distributed amongst the poor, through Public Distribution System (PDS) and other welfare schemes like Antyodaya Anna Yojana (AAY), Jawahar Rozgar Yojana and Midday Meal Scheme for Below Poverty Line (BPL) card holders, was diverted to the open market.(wiki).So if government introduces schemes in the name of public intrest and embezzles funds that are meant for public development ,can there ever be growth in the country? Among the poor?Funds are siphoned off by every intermediate perosn before it reaches poor.India is estimated to have one third of the world's poor people and our politicians gobble up the funds instituted to mitigate hunger?Corruption is not just restricted to politicians and bureaucrats it is prevalent everywhere.Infact amongst every one of us.In the olden days we had to pay bribe to get wrong things done.Now we have to pay bribes to civil authorities to get the right things done.If this is one case,the other is when people want to get things done soon, they pay and get them done swift and sure.It's the duty of every citizen to fight against corruption.But,unfortunately Whistle Blowers in India are always subjected to harrasment and eventually in their death if they stand on the side of justice.Satyendra Dubey,project director at NHAI(National Highway Authority Of India)exposed the irregularities in the Golden Quadrilateral Construction project.He wrote a letter to the prime minister of India.Despite his request not to disclose his identity It was passed on to higher authorities of NHAI which eventually led to his Murder.It is one such case which drew protests from all over India.There are many other cases were gruesome murders took place for fighting against corruption.India doesn't have a law to protect it's whistle blowers.Whistle Blowers Protection Bill,2011 is still pending before rajya Sabha.If law makers take law into their hands and are the ones who are into corruption.Against whom can common man fight?17 years after the scam of embezzling 950 crore in Fodder scam case,Lalu prasad Yadav was given a term of five years in jail and a fine of 25 lacs ? I don't think it's fair.
Even recently Ashok Khemka who exposed the land deals between Robert Vadra and DLF has faced lot of threats.Now the government is trying their best to nail him down by digging the files and charge sheeting him.Isn't he facing all this because he exposed truth about the people in power?.After the movement led by Anna Hazare and his hunger strikes,Finally our government  passed Lok pall Bill,though it had undergone some modifications before it was passed in the Rajya Sabha.It still instills some hope among people that there would be change.
Corruption in India needs to be eradicated from the grass root level.Every citizen should feel the responsibility and contribute for the change in Nation.Arvind Kejriwal is an iconic person,his ideas are ideal.I hope unlike every other politician who makes promises only to break them he would strive for uprooting corruption.His ideas are influential.Change doesn't happen in a day or a month,may not be even in an year.But beleiving in that someday is the only hope that would lead us forward.

It's so weird i have to post it 5 days after the year started.First regret of the year that i couldn't update on time..:)

After so many speculations about world ending in 2012..I was glad 2013 kick started with a bash.I wrote a long list of resolutions.Out of those I followed none Which i knew would happen when i wrote them down.But I think it's human tendency to make rules to break them.2013 has been a conglomeration of sad and happy moments.I was so glad i joined in my first job.Wasn't my dream job or something extraordinarily brilliant.But still was a happy moment to get my first pay..It was an incredible feeling.But days just flew by..I didn't even realise. When i look back now..an year of memories are past behind me.There were many good people i met,Missing old friends,making new friends,it was a new life.A life which gave me freedom to follow my dreams,to do things i longed for.

Now its again a new year.I wont make any resolutions,I would just believe in my conscience and move forward in this year.Hope it would be a great year for everyone.Life isn't about acheiving everything you planned,Its rather putting in your best efforts in realising them.It isn't about making money and living a lavish life..It's about having loved ones around you always.I am glad to have a wonderful family and awesome friends in my life.Love you all and wish everyone a happy year ahead..God bless all...