Tuesday, 4 September 2012




Some one told me “Will I succeed or not?” is not a question to think of or to be worried about when you start working for a task you want to achieve.Its doesn’t matter if u succed or fail.The most important thing is how hard you try or how much endurance you have  in facing the difficulties to attain your goal. Often  people say I am not as intelligent as him/her. Yes may be there is something called intelligence by birth exists in this world, but there is a lot more u add to it. I do not accept the fact that u cannot do something if u wish for it,if u have a strong will.Its just that the time taken in accomplishing the same might differ from person to person .There is never a end of try in your life .For instance I did great with my studies in my school. My parents joined me in IIT coaching hoping that I would crack it.I was very excited about it because it was a dream for everyone who opt math to get into an IIT.Initially exams were conducted in college  I was brimming with joy for finding myself in the top 5..It soon faded into last in the first list and den to 2nd 3rd lists.May be things go fine for few days if you are good enough to crack questions without studying.(Not that i was intelligent by birth but i wasnt bad either..:):)) But u know what.. that’s just ephemeral. People around me  were meticulous, they worked hard  studied day and night .They  definetly proved good in their results. But the only thing I felt during that period of two years is to leave that place as soon as possible.It was a tiring schedule, packed for 19 hrs in a day..!!!!God dat was a hell lot for me.I was never a swot earlier. People around me  always had a myriad doubts .I never had one coz I never solved one. I remember  a day(the worst) when my warden even splashed water on my face at 5 A.M to wake me up.I had a classes starting 6am till noon.If my memory is not wrong  I heard only one fouth of the curriculum or may be worse than that.  I was always busy figuring out all possible ways to sleep without getting caught in class. Eat as many chocolates so I could stop my eyelids from shutting down. There were instances when I fell asleep even when I was standing and listening to a lecture. I would chat with friends most of the time find reasons and go for outings. But shouldn’t I be the best to be in best college? Shouldnt I need to prove good at my studies? shouldnt I spend more time on acads?I couldn’t understand all these then ..All I thought was I cant work so much. But the truth is my will was not strong.I wonder where all my enthusiasm went day by day.Days passed by and my grades became more worse.The terrible days would be  week ends when parents visit and inquire about my studies.I would have a bad feeling the for the next few days and I try to study but the old me comes back with flying colours.!!!!!Back to pavilion, no study again.And yes +2 ended.The awaited day(for my parents) finally came. I failed as expected( by me!!!). My state board exam was equally messed up(infact a bit more).Then I understood that I was screwed for one big time..!!!That day was no less than a nightmare. I was given an option at home to retake the exam If I wished for..But the lazy me inside did not have the patience nor the endurance to go through that sleepless nights .I quit..!!!! I joined in engineering some where else.So the whole point in narrating this is Was I incapable of getting into IIT ?Was I not good enough?Wasnt I smart like others?The answer is I didn’t have the patience to TRY.I wasn’t perseverant. Infact I didn’t  even attempt to try.I accepted the failure knowing that I didn’t give in my best .So what I believe is u would always have a second chance a third one and even more in life ...But  Ur success lies in making use of that precious chance .Its not important if u fail or lose. U just  have to try hard enough not to have any regrets in your life like I have one now..Life always gives you oppurtunities the success lies in identifying them and facing the hurdles with a brave and strong will.U work hard for something you will definetly  achieve  someday…!!!!!So I stick back to  the phrase Impossible its self says I’m possible..So friends don’t ever give up by saying its not meant for me.. I cant do it…!!!!!!

3 comments:

  1. "I never had one coz i never solved one" - this one line justifies d thing !!! again a superb article yaar :) a part of me reflected whole i was going through this! hopefully that "old me" does'nt turn up soon in our lives.... hatsoff :)

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  2. "So what I believe is u would always have a second chance a third one and even more in life ...But Ur success lies in making use of that precious chance ."
    When I was playing a game called 'Unicorn Dash'. In the initial stage u have to go pick up all the possible opportunities to get a good score ,and when the game goes to a difficult level your survival will be in danger. So what i feel similar to the lines above is " to be a good successful person u got to take each every chance in the initial stage. Doesn't matter even if u fail try for the next one. If not our survival will be difficult."

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